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Saturday, October 10, 2009

That's the Girl I Love

it's so much to accept all at once.
yet it all is one package, take it or leave it.
no picking out the good stuff.
no leaving out the bad stuff.
no wanting it in good times.
no straying during bad.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

pure brute, unmerciful willpower.
what she wants, she gets.
and yet, i know for a fact, that deep inside..
she's trying her best to look strong..
even though it doesn't show.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

she won't tell you what you wanna know.
yet, she'll get what she wants from you..
coz you just can't help to disappoint her.
coz you can't bear to be the one to hurt her..
she's very secretive. yet she tells secrets.
she hides yours. and hides more of hers.
and you might get pissed at the secrecy..
and smile at how she manages to keep it in.
such self control. such determination.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

she's very expressive. always loud.
very friendly. very spontaneous.
never really her, without that smile on that face.
never really good to see, that smile upside down.
and yet, when you wanna help her..
when you just wanna know what's wrong.
she still has that courage to BE strong.
and say that "it's nothing".. when deep down she's bleeding.
and still she smiles at the world like such.
and hides what she feels underneath..
just for the sake that others don't get too concerned about her.
or stuff.
what she doesn't know is how it hurts you more.
that she suffers through it alone.
and yet she's like that.
smiling, yet bleeding.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

she's a pessimist at almost everything.
always saying that she'll fail, yet she aces what she takes.
always saying that she's bad, when her goodness radiates from within her.
always thinking that things will go astray from what is..
never trusting too much. yet not that distrusting either.
she'll never believe you a 100%.
she always has to see for herself that it's done
or it's true.
even if she gets embarrassed, she'll just smile at that little mistrust.
she has to see it to believe in you.
she wants to be the one who makes that decision.
coz in her way, she's a distrusting pessimist.
and yet, her competitiveness overrides her lack of trust.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

she never really gives you a chance at anything.
she does what she can for herself.
she doesn't want to look like taking advantage of others..
when she, herself, has the ability of accomplishing the deed.
and yet, she'll ask of you in that sweet expression of hers, favors.
in her own time.
she'll act all cute so that you'll do what she asks.
and you can't bear resist.
and deep down, you know that even if she doesn't get all cute,
and just simply ask.. you'll do it for her.
yet there are times when she never wants your help.
always closed. always guarded.
as if you won't do it right.
acting all strong and as if she can do everything you can.
and as much as it is a pain..
it is wonderful, that way.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

she's friendly. she wants many connections.
she can talk to anybody she wants. anytime anywhere.
she's all bubbly and really irresistible to be with.
like that, she's got this huge stock of so-called brothers.
so much guys, and so much girls-- her friends.
and they all can't deny that she's a good person.
and as much as it makes you jealous.
as much as it makes you green with envy.
as much as it makes you red with fury.
and as much as you wanna stop what you've started..
coz you don't think you can handle it.
you can't resist that friendliness and connection you feel
whenever she's near.
and it sucks, big time.

and YET i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

and so much bad things are around her.
and yet she herself is immune.
drinking, partying, cussing, smoking, you name it.
and yet she's resistant to all those.
even if the most closest to her are the ones offering.
she's strong that way. and good natured.
and pure hearted. and right moral-ed.
and as much as you want her to enjoy life this way.
besides that more evil desires, by the way.
just enjoy a party, have a drink.. feel the heat.
she resists. strongly. even if everyone else may think of her as weird.
and yet there are parts of her that are naughty.
how she dances to the sound and rhythm of music.
how she acts to get what she wants.
how she thinks at times of people she's pissed at.
and the good and the bad.. in your eyes.
are all what makes her herself. and that's all good.

and i realize.
.. that's the girl i love.

and even though the world ends.
even though the earth crumbles.
and even if some tiny event that is not really that significant occurs..
you can't DARE leave her.
even if, in the future, you two are not together.
even if, when the time comes, she finds another. and you, the same.
there would still be that attachment that never goes away.
that part of your heart that will always be hers.
coz she's simply that way-- you can't leave her.
you'd give her the world, if it were possible.
and you'd give her the best of what you could.

coz even if things don't go like the way you think now.
you know for a fact.
as assured as there is oxygen in the air and it powers us up.
as assured as there is gravity keeping us from flying to space.
as assured that our hearts won't stop beating till we die.
as assured as you are human.
as assured as you know that you have the ability to love.
as assured as there is an Almighty God out there watching.

you know that you can't hurt her.
coz deep down you KNOW..

.. that THAT's the girl you love.

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