randomized emotions

expect nothing.
learn to love when loving goes both ways.
learn to live when living and loving intertwine.
learn to smile when smiling hides no tears behind.
learn to cry when crying means smiling is impossible.


love with a love that's true.
take the risk. crash or burn up.

Crash when you give your all, and still end up broken up.
Burn up when you decide that you have no chance.. and it's better to save yourself the pain.
learn to deduce. learn to decide. learn to love.


put up boundaries. don't get too attached.
set standards. don't bend them.
standards are set to be followed.
passing standards doesn't mean it's the same for the other party.
don't expect. don't get attached. don't fall too hard.
or you might simply CRASH.


sourgrape to forget.
yet limit yourself to not hate.
just to forget. to return to normal.
and yet.. it never really goes away.
not a hundred percent.
be prepared to fall, if you're not careful.


continue to smile.
continue to laugh.
continue to live.
there's always a purpose.
always a plan.
always a reason.
nothing happens just because.

facade.

why is it..
that we hide behind masks?

it's so sad to realize one day..
that the person you think you knew.. was hurting so much.
and yet they wouldn't show it.

and you thought everything was FINE.


i mean..
why are we afraid of being vulnerable?
why are we so scared of feeling weak?
why is it, that we need to always appear STRONG?!

it's so stupid.
not letting others know you're hurting..
and yet, yearning for it all the same.

they'd say it's pride.


so much pain.
over pride.

is it too much to come for help when you're drowning?


haha.. and it's ironic.
for me to be writing about these things..
and yet be doing the same damn thing.

guess in the end..
it's all just a facade.