impression.

there are some things that you simply cannot stop.
some things that are simply out of your control.
and no matter how you look at it.. happily or sadly.
no matter what you do or say..

it simply is.
period.


and it drills a deeper hole in my already holey heart.
that this thing that will be occurring.. is really is.

and no matter what i do.
no matter what i say.

you will be going.
and i will still be here.


so i change the way i think.
i change my attitude towards what will be.
and think of it not as a hindrance.
not as a threat.
not as a bad thing, maybe.
but as a challenge.

so far, all that has done to me is..
to let me know more about you.

maybe you also feel the same way..
about leaving yet not wanting to leave.

and i've come to a decision.

"to make the most out of it."


and it may be cliche to say those words..
but that's what is true.
and that's what is logically sound for the heart.

i WILL make an impression on your life..
that when you're finally gone.

the pain would not be too much to bear since..
i would know. for a FACT.
that you will be thinking of me.

that everytime you hear the words i always used to utter.
you would remember me.
and, maybe this would be a gigantic leap,
but maybe you would miss me too.


i may not know what the future holds for us. for me.
but i do know that what i do right now.
is what is necessary for the future to occur.
so while i'm still in the PRESENT. as i would forever be.
i would make the most out of it.

i will fulfill that promise to myself.
and maybe, in a way, to you.

that i will leave my mark.
i will leave my legacy.
i will make you remember.

i will leave you..
my impression.